I am 60
Life was good when I was early twenty.I had no plan and no ambition, having complete freedom and living a spartan life.
On the occasion of my 60th birthday, many things had happened to me I thought could never had happened.
My heart had given me the biggest surprise. On the day I did my esp, I was thinking I was a very healthy person based on the regimes I had practiced for many years. When I was doing the threadmill, I managed to level 3 without any panting for breadth or feeling pain in my chest. I was surprised when Dr Nizar told me that at stage 3, my heart did not perform in normal way. He suspected a block of some sort in one of the arteries, thus restricting the flow of blood to vital area. Two week later, this was confirmed by another cardiologist who did a ct scan on me, and again by Dr Nizar who performed an angiogram , which clearly showed what I need is a bypass.
The feeling that one is going to be retired also gripped me with anxiety as to what am I going to do after this. I accept the fact that I am going to retire, but I have little plan what to do next.There are many possibilities that cross my mind, but none of them I ever thought of pursuing seriously yet.Sometimes I thought I shouldnt have any plan. Indeed my life has been without any plan as I move from boyhood to adolescent, to adulthood, to marriage life and bringing up a family. Fate had been good to me and had taken care of my wellbeing blessing me with good education, long lasting friends, robust health, sucessful career, happy marriage and good family. I should fret too much about my retirement, instead I should take retirement when it comes and move on with it. My first thought would be to travel to places I had not been to, to write my experience and to just stand and stare. Indeed after I am over with just standing and staring, and perhap tired of it, I may think of something worthwhile to do like embarking on a small business, taking a partime job, learning religion to enrich my spiritual experience or perhap continue travelling to off the road places.It appears that I have a host of things to do, and in order to fulfill myself, I must remain healthy, and that is the reason I am eager to do have a strong heart.
My children seemed to grow and develop like other normal children. I gave them good education and they make use of the education to embark on a career that I hope will take care of them. Of course in some instances, I dont get the full satisfaction of my dream on them, nevertheless I am pleased with the course they had chosen. Tam and Ikah is doing sufficiently fine with a job that they are trying very hard to build their career on. Zaim seemed okey with his studies, and Ayai, the most worrying of the lot, would I hope be getting 5 credits to enable him to enter some vocational or trade courses. Shimran entered our family life, a boy with a good upbringing and look serious to enter into marriage with Ikah and be a part of the family member.
Many thing are going to happen in 2008, the year I turn 60, entering into another unknown zone of my life which at every corner and turn, continue to give surprises, colouring my life canvas like no body had ever done before.
My heart had given me the biggest surprise. On the day I did my esp, I was thinking I was a very healthy person based on the regimes I had practiced for many years. When I was doing the threadmill, I managed to level 3 without any panting for breadth or feeling pain in my chest. I was surprised when Dr Nizar told me that at stage 3, my heart did not perform in normal way. He suspected a block of some sort in one of the arteries, thus restricting the flow of blood to vital area. Two week later, this was confirmed by another cardiologist who did a ct scan on me, and again by Dr Nizar who performed an angiogram , which clearly showed what I need is a bypass.
The feeling that one is going to be retired also gripped me with anxiety as to what am I going to do after this. I accept the fact that I am going to retire, but I have little plan what to do next.There are many possibilities that cross my mind, but none of them I ever thought of pursuing seriously yet.Sometimes I thought I shouldnt have any plan. Indeed my life has been without any plan as I move from boyhood to adolescent, to adulthood, to marriage life and bringing up a family. Fate had been good to me and had taken care of my wellbeing blessing me with good education, long lasting friends, robust health, sucessful career, happy marriage and good family. I should fret too much about my retirement, instead I should take retirement when it comes and move on with it. My first thought would be to travel to places I had not been to, to write my experience and to just stand and stare. Indeed after I am over with just standing and staring, and perhap tired of it, I may think of something worthwhile to do like embarking on a small business, taking a partime job, learning religion to enrich my spiritual experience or perhap continue travelling to off the road places.It appears that I have a host of things to do, and in order to fulfill myself, I must remain healthy, and that is the reason I am eager to do have a strong heart.
My children seemed to grow and develop like other normal children. I gave them good education and they make use of the education to embark on a career that I hope will take care of them. Of course in some instances, I dont get the full satisfaction of my dream on them, nevertheless I am pleased with the course they had chosen. Tam and Ikah is doing sufficiently fine with a job that they are trying very hard to build their career on. Zaim seemed okey with his studies, and Ayai, the most worrying of the lot, would I hope be getting 5 credits to enable him to enter some vocational or trade courses. Shimran entered our family life, a boy with a good upbringing and look serious to enter into marriage with Ikah and be a part of the family member.
Many thing are going to happen in 2008, the year I turn 60, entering into another unknown zone of my life which at every corner and turn, continue to give surprises, colouring my life canvas like no body had ever done before.
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